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Okay, I'll admitt it... I'm feeling... insecure : just a little, really, though...
I miss my friends D: I need to invite you all over for a tea party or something real soon. I love you all!

So... TJ apologized to me again today. (this is what makes me insecure.) It's been a month already, basically. Yes, I miss him... He says that he effin' loves me and misses me... which of course... I replied with how I felt: "If you were a beam of sunlight, I would blow kisses up to you everyday, and thank you for lighting up my life." But... that being all gravy... I feel very uncertain and anxious because I feel like I've closed myself off from him after everything thats happened... and I know on some level that I really do want to be with him (how could I not? D: ) ...but. How can I if I can't open myself to him? I still see most of the beauty and life in the world... but why do I feel afraid of love? Is it afraid of trusting? I think its because I can't be with him face-to-face, for reassurance. I also feel like I should be able to handle this... which I sort of am, I guess... but I like openening up to my friends... they're my family, and I know I can love and trust you guys, and you'll love and trust me in return... Thank you.

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"Love? Well... love is a bit like drinking a glass of lemonaide... Sometimes you get a clump of sugar, and well... other times you choke on the lemon. But either way, its refreshing, right?"

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"Break these chains around my wings, and free I'll fly away from things.
Here they lay, these broken chains, scattered with wicked glee.
And here I stand, those chains in hand, my darkened wings so vast and free."

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"Break these chains around my wings, and free I'll fly away from things.
There they lay, those broken chains, scattered for me to see.
So here I stand, those chains in hand, my lightened wings so whole and free."

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:[ im sorry love - i know what you mean. Since Jordon and i broke up i've been really detached from "love" and stuff - like almost afraid of it. So i understand =] just takes times though, i guess! And i love you very much...don't forget! And post haha!