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Okay, I'll admitt it... I'm feeling... insecure : just a little, really, though...
I miss my friends D: I need to invite you all over for a tea party or something real soon. I love you all!
So... TJ apologized to me again today. (this is what makes me insecure.) It's been a month already, basically. Yes, I miss him... He says that he effin' loves me and misses me... which of course... I replied with how I felt: "If you were a beam of sunlight, I would blow kisses up to you everyday, and thank you for lighting up my life." But... that being all gravy... I feel very uncertain and anxious because I feel like I've closed myself off from him after everything thats happened... and I know on some level that I really do want to be with him (how could I not? D: ) ...but. How can I if I can't open myself to him? I still see most of the beauty and life in the world... but why do I feel afraid of love? Is it afraid of trusting? I think its because I can't be with him face-to-face, for reassurance. I also feel like I should be able to handle this... which I sort of am, I guess... but I like openening up to my friends... they're my family, and I know I can love and trust you guys, and you'll love and trust me in return... Thank you.
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"Love? Well... love is a bit like drinking a glass of lemonaide... Sometimes you get a clump of sugar, and well... other times you choke on the lemon. But either way, its refreshing, right?"
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"Break these chains around my wings, and free I'll fly away from things.
Here they lay, these broken chains, scattered with wicked glee.
And here I stand, those chains in hand, my darkened wings so vast and free."
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"Break these chains around my wings, and free I'll fly away from things.
There they lay, those broken chains, scattered for me to see.
So here I stand, those chains in hand, my lightened wings so whole and free."
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~☼My Family~☼
~☼Friends~☼
~☼The People I Watch~☼
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I miss my friends D: I need to invite you all over for a tea party or something real soon. I love you all!
So... TJ apologized to me again today. (this is what makes me insecure.) It's been a month already, basically. Yes, I miss him... He says that he effin' loves me and misses me... which of course... I replied with how I felt: "If you were a beam of sunlight, I would blow kisses up to you everyday, and thank you for lighting up my life." But... that being all gravy... I feel very uncertain and anxious because I feel like I've closed myself off from him after everything thats happened... and I know on some level that I really do want to be with him (how could I not? D: ) ...but. How can I if I can't open myself to him? I still see most of the beauty and life in the world... but why do I feel afraid of love? Is it afraid of trusting? I think its because I can't be with him face-to-face, for reassurance. I also feel like I should be able to handle this... which I sort of am, I guess... but I like openening up to my friends... they're my family, and I know I can love and trust you guys, and you'll love and trust me in return... Thank you.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"Love? Well... love is a bit like drinking a glass of lemonaide... Sometimes you get a clump of sugar, and well... other times you choke on the lemon. But either way, its refreshing, right?"
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"Break these chains around my wings, and free I'll fly away from things.
Here they lay, these broken chains, scattered with wicked glee.
And here I stand, those chains in hand, my darkened wings so vast and free."
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"Break these chains around my wings, and free I'll fly away from things.
There they lay, those broken chains, scattered for me to see.
So here I stand, those chains in hand, my lightened wings so whole and free."
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
~☼My Family~☼
~☼Friends~☼
~☼The People I Watch~☼
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Art for life
I finally updated my Deviantart account! After going to Fanime for the first time I was really inspired and have decided to take my ''art'' more seriously. One day I will have a manga and it will be glorious! Lol x3
You can also follow me on tumblr~
http://bits-o-mint.tumblr.com/
WHO AM I?!
FINALLY... lol
Yay!
Yay! I have nothing of importance to say! <3
Commissions!
Okay, so I realize that I've been really lazy and my DA is lacking most of my recent and better artwork, but I'm going to try to update it and be more active as a DA member! My friend Chris has given me a great opportunity to do commissions for him and his friends, so I plan to get my own site up and running pretty soon so I can do more for more people! If you're interested, let me know by leaving a message here or emailing me at alyson.k.bender@gmail.com.
Linked below is his website, if you're interested take a look, you'll see some of my art there!
http://www.theoctoshow.com/uncategorized/new-art-for-the-site/
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:[ im sorry love - i know what you mean. Since Jordon and i broke up i've been really detached from "love" and stuff - like almost afraid of it. So i understand =] just takes times though, i guess! And i love you very much...don't forget! And post haha!